The past weeks I’ve had the same dream over and over again.. How weird is that!

I’m still thinking about it.. What if I do love you..? Or what if I really LOVE someone else?

I know this sounds weird.. Well believe me my dream was worse! Every night I dream about some kind of war.. And in that war we all have to choose our life partners and stay with that person in some kind of cell.. The only problem is that I can’t choose.. I know I can walk to the person who’s most important in my life right now, but I see more people.. I just can’t see their faces..

  When there’s nomore time to think and the most scary thing ever is about te happen.. I wake up! every morning at  04:14.. I wonder what it means.. Is there anybody out there who can explain it to me??

Oh well.. It’s just a dream right..?

Oh there’s another thing I want to tell.. I keep on thinking about the wonderfull voice and the deep blue eyes.. If I only knew what THAT means..

The past weeks I’ve had the same dream over and over again.. How weird is that!

I’m still thinking about it.. What if I do love you..? Or what if I really LOVE someone else?

I know this sounds weird.. Well believe me my dream was worse! Every night I dream about some kind of war.. And in that war we all have to choose our life partners and stay with that person in some kind of cell.. The only problem is that I can’t choose.. I know I can walk to the person who’s most important in my life right now, but I see more people.. I just can’t see their faces..

  When there’s nomore time to think and the most scary thing ever is about te happen.. I wake up! every morning at  04:14.. I wonder what it means.. Is there anybody out there who can explain it to me??

Oh well.. It’s just a dream right..?

Oh there’s another thing I want to tell.. I keep on thinking about the wonderfull voice and the deep blue eyes.. If I only knew what THAT means..

How afraid can a person be..?
I don’t feel good, but I’m not ready to give in.. I’m scared! I just don’t know why..I know I feel diffrent then I really am, I really want to be..

Make it stop! NOW!                                                               

I’m so scared.. I just don’t know why…. It makes me cry.. I know I don’t have to, but it sure feels like it..

I wish I wasn’t as lonely as I am right now.. I love you and I know you love me.. You’re there, always..  And I know you always will be..

I just don’t want to be your secret anymore! I’m sick en tired of it! I just want to be with you whenever I want to! I want to lie in your arms..

Please..

Please hold me..

I have to admit.. I am a fan… A fan of Eva.. Eva de Roovere.. Go and check it out; www.evaderoovere.be!

There is nothing much going on in my life right now.. I saw a movie about ‘Ana’.. That was weird.. For a second I thought it was the best that could ever happen to a person That’s so weird!! Because it’s so wrong!!

But because of that I am eating not as much as I normaly do.. :s I don’t know why!

At school some people are still acting a bit sad.. I dont’t talk to her, because I know it won’t make a diffrence! It will work against me! And I don’t want that.. It’s oke the way it’s going.

Monday a big day.. I’m scared.. I don’t know what to say.. Don’t want to make anyone angry..   What am I supposed to do?? Please help me God!

This is all for now.. I have alot to do! If you have anything to say, please do! In Dutch or in English, it doesn’t matter! Hope to see you soon!

Remeber:

Don’t have much to tell today.. I’m just sitting here and waiting till it’s time..

Some people are very sad I mean when you can’t let go of acts you did as a kid.. You’re just sad!  Ah wel, I’m not going  to react on it..

I want some chocolate I think I’m going to get some..

Something true in dutch:

Het is beter een lichtje aan te steken, dan te klagen dat het zo donker is..

Had a bizar dream last night..

Today a new day.. A day full of information..

I wonder why some people can’t let go to the passed..  It’s sad for those people.. Because what is it worth??

All I want to say to those people is: GROW UP!!!!!!!!

When everything is going how you want it to go.. There’s always something to  hold you back..

When you think you can trust somebody, they’ll turn you down.. That’s very frustrating! Who can you trust? The people who talk about you behind your back? The people who keep you their secret? I hate it.. Because there’s nothing I can do about it!

Somtimes I feel like this little cartoon.. I feel like a local "shower" is above me.. And only me.. While I’m standing there with an empty heart the rain is making me wet.

How can  you say about a person that he/ she is making things up if you don’t even know what’s going on..?